Im just no good without you...
Anne
MANILA
It was a cold night in Febuary... "Another Valentines Day without a love one" i sighed. Why does it have to be like this every year... I've been looking forward that someone would love me with all their heart. "Why does it have to be like this?" I sighed. It was 12 in the afternoon and i was thinking of going outside.
I stood up and went outside. It was so cold outside like you are in a place without light or heat or nothing. I was looking at the window of a restaurant i was so jealous about the other couples having dates, dinner, having movies and so much more.
Suddenly i just laughed. "Haha!!! Why am i inspecting such an impossible dream. After all im just an ugly person. After strolling for an hour i decided to take a seat in a bench. The snow started to fall. Since i was alone i begun to think that there'sno one to go home to. I started to cry and thought about the sad memories being alone. Suddenly while my hands were cupped in face in my surprise i saw a man.
He was about the age of 23 when i looked at him. " Hi!" he said with a soothing voice. "I cant help not to notice you. Since you were crying... you know... i decided to check how you were!" He said emarrased. While he said those flattering words i was so touched that i begun to cry even more. "What did i do?" He surprisingly said. "Did i say something wrong?" he wondered. "No, Its just that those were the first time i heard someone say those words to me. So im really touched" I replied. "Since your with no one... I was wondering.. well.. you wanna go out?" he asked.
I quickedly nodded and since then we started going out. Our love since then grew stronger every single day we go out. Until one day. My celphone rang and i quickly answered it. "Hello?" i greeted. "Hello chriselle, I was wondering we meet infront of the train station?" h said. "Sure, see ya there!!!" I said happily.
It was 7:00 pm when i arrived. I looked at the streets and was amazed by the long traffic. "Hhmm, Im sure Andre be late. I know the reason anyway" i said. I was waiting about 3 hours. The heavy traffic surely come to an end. "What's taking him so long?" I wondered. I after waiting for a long time i decided to go home. I was angry for him not coming bout at the same time worried. When i reached home i saw a small box together with a letter on the floor.
I opened it and saw a beautiful ring. I was amazed by its beauty. I opened the letter and begun to read.
Dear Chriselle,
I've been waiting for someone like you to come to my life. Im really sorry for not telling the truth to you this whole time. I had leukemia since before we started going out. Since then i was afraid to tell you that you might get sad or get really depressed. So, i give you this ring to let our love connect even if i go to the other side. I really want you to be my first and last. But i guess that couldnt be. I just want to tell you how mush i really love you. No matter what you will always be in my heart and mind. I let you go to the train station for you not to know that i was going to die on the same day as Valentines Day i just want you not to get worried or come to my death day. For i know you will surely get hurt. Im sorry if i made you mad. But for me its better not being sad. Since now, i really hope u will keep me in your heart and mind even though i am not here. I thank you for all the happiness that you gave me. I just hope you dont miss me so much for i will be right beside you no matter what. I want you to keep this letter and ring so u will not forget me no matter what. I will wait for you in the other side!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
Your true love: Andre
Those last words... Those last words... I LOVE YOU... really touched me. I begun to cry even without realizing it. For some reasong im not mad for what he has done. I'm really happy he said those words. I smiled and begun to cry even more. "How can I forget you, you idiot..." i said. " You're the first and last person i will ever be with" I will also wait for the day that both of us will be together again. I LOVE YOU!!!
Since that day i was full of glee. But somehow i feel something really missing. I guess im just no good without him.
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